Bismillahi Ar-Rahman ArRaheem

Bismallahi Ar Rahman Ar RAheem

And when I felt like I had no one,
And like I couldn't breathe at all,
I found myself turning to Allah,
And I remembered who I was
(nothing but a servant)--
But more importantly,
I remembered
Him,
And Who He Is…

I rememberedAr-Rahman,
And I thought of His Compassion,
And I wondered why I shed a tear,
When I knew He was the One
Who gave blessings to all,
Without disparity.

But then, I remembered,
Who I was.
A poor poor sinner,
And I despaired.
And then, again!
I wondered why I had despaired,
when He was Ar-Raheem,
The Most Merciful.
The One who pledged His mercy would prevail over
His wrath.
And I smiled,

But then I felt a fear, so powerful,
Clamping my heart,
Choking my breath,
For I realized He was Al Alim, Ar-Raqeeb
And Al Haseeb (the Reckoner)-
I knew then,
He knew every hidden thought of mine,
Knew every action I had done
In the deep of the night,
In public,
And in private.
He knew,
Every action I had not done,
Every act I should have done,
And He forgot nothing.

I realized with a terror so deep,
That everything was recorded,
Detailed in an account
That would lead to my reward or punishment
And I knew that I was in trouble…

I wished the earth would swallow me-
Would that I had never been born!
I thought I was done for, until at last,
I remembered,
He is Al Ghafur, At Tawab, and As-Shakur,
And I knew it would be okay.
He could forgive my faults,
Hide them from even me on the Day of Reckoning,
And He would appreciate any good act I had done,
And reward it amply,
And I rejoiced,
Knowing He would never close His door,
And I was always welcome.

And then, I wondered,
if my prayer would be answered,
and then I laughed at myself,
For I remembered,
He had called Himself As-Sami',
He heard everything,
But more than that,
He had called Himself Al Mujeeb,
And He had promised that He was Near,
And that He answered the call of every supplicant,
And that's when I knew.
I had turned to the Glorious, the Powerful, the Sovereign,
I had turned to the Compassionate, the Merciful,
I had turned to the Perfect One.
I had turned to the One and Only

اللَّهُ لَا إِلَهَ إِلَّا هُوَ
لَهُ الْأَسْمَاء الْحُسْنَى